Commitment and Reward

Was in NYC last week and accomplished a couple of cool things. I'm typically not motivated to put myself to work but this Leadership program has changed me in many ways so I put myself to work. I set up three meetings with applicants and it was fabulous. I had so much fun. I prepared some question ahead of time and decided that that is the best engage. So NYC was a major success in terms of follow through. I kept all of my commitments, kept my phone with me at all times and generally had a blast chatting with new folks and old friends. I also did a bit of shopping which will probably take me till next year to pay off but I had so much fun and decided to treat myself to a few new items.

Stage Name: Fearless Fortissa

So I've been toying with some ideas about fear, and have been trying to come up with some talismans or totems to think of to help me get over my fears in any situation. I wish everyone could read my journal entries from when I was 13 I think I'll post one here later, not just so you can see my ridiculous 8th grade bubble letters but so that you'll see how generally I come across as a big old scaredy cat! "I'm afraid I'll always be ugly, I'm afraid no one will want to marry me, I'm afraid I'll be a nobody, just fear fear and more fear. Remember the lion in the Wizard of Oz? That was so me. I prayed for courage a lot- back when I use to pray (no offense to anyone who does), and I remember thinking if I just had courage I would light the world on fire. So its particularly awesome that Marissa came up with my stage name; Fearless Fortissa, or "fearless strength." Because fear can be a great thing- it can be a huge motivator, as in, "I'm afraid I'm turning into my passive aggressive mother by not learning how to be more assertive." Well kids here it is - fear is natural we need it but what we need even more is to acknowledge the fear and go for it anyway. I'm learning to link the massive amounts of fear I have to the excitement that can come from overcoming that fear to achieve the life I want, desire, and deserve. So thank you Marissa for helping me to see that I am fearless in my pursuit of overcoming fear, I have tapped into the courage I always had.